What are friends anyways?

This question suddenly popped up in my head today. What are friends anyways? I have friends, plenty of 'em. But do they really are my friends?

First of, I'm a shy guy, really, but I know how to mingle and make friends. I have lots of friends back then since kindergarten, which then to primary. In my secondary education, I'd met more other friends from various location throuht out Malaysia. Now, in the University, I'd make more friends and still have my old friends with me. But, out of all he friends which one of them are really my real friends?

I do believe that I still have my "besterestest" friends like Buyut, Effa, Jijah, Nizar, Pilin, Aqeem, Baloo, my housemates in India, and more who I classify them as my BFF, and I also happen to have lots of close friends. The most interesting part is, I have many friends, but some of them I don't even know where to place them?

I mean, you see, there are many types of friends that live on this earth. Friends for benefit for example, do they really should be classified? I mean, I don't get the idea friends for benefit. You see, I'm with my BFF, we are friends for benefit as well you know. I got something from them, they got something from me. Does that not counted as friends for benefits?

Let's not talk about that cause it's way too off topic. I wanted to share my experience with 1 person I called friend. People make jokes and jokes are the thing that a sign that people want to make nice to them. I purposely and with the intention want to make nice, tap my "friend" and what I get in return was a scream and anger from that person. Am I to scary or am I being to overacting? I don't think so, or maybe "friends" thinks that I'm overacting. I mean, people have anger and temper., I know, believe me. I do have temper as well, but each and every people should really have to CONTROL the temper, if not, you'll make no friends then. Don't simply throw you temper to people who try to make nice to you.

I admit, I'm fragile and I am someone that can be cool so fast that people barely noticed, but I do have my limits too. People says that people like are dangerous, that once I'm mad, I'll explode like volcano. I don't think so, but I'm not in the position to deny it. It might happen oneday.

Next, I have a "friend" that is so close to me,mind that, CLOSE, not BFF. "Friend" and I were really good, but the truth is hurtful that we all always not in the same boat as what people look. I think I'm a person that easily get involved with. Sometimes, I felt that I've being used. Am I too nice too people? Am I too fragile that people could hurt me so easily? I asked myself. Maybe. I don't know. When I'm needed, "friend" will fine me, when I'm not needed, I'm invisible. At first, I'm trying to be optimistic, but rather than I'm hurt, better I take a step backward and try not to get involved.

I think I'm too good and nice to people and people just like to take advantage of me. Maybe I need to be selfish once or all and maybe that could change me oneday.

I know, in this world, life is difficult but c'est la vie as in French they said. (translation = that's life). Hope, oneday, I'll find my happiness. So, what are friends to you?

To my BFF. thanks for being for me all this while. I'll always 'heart' you guys and may our friendship last for eternity till death shall apart us. =)

United Kingdom

After a long break with exams and all, now I'm finally breathing back into the world of blogging. I thinks it's quite late already to tell the UK experience, but I still want to share it. Well, that was the firsr time I went to the UK, so, my heart really pounding like crazy at the moment when we landed in Heathrow Airport. Well, briefly about the journey which Ayuni and I went there by Emirates from Bangalore to London via Dubai. As we reach Dubai, I was amazed with the airport. It was so huge and big. Transit there just a short time. Then flight to London 1 and half hour later. What I really love about Emirates was, the convenient of the flight and the flight attendance who were kind and really helpful. Homestly, I was hoping that I could catch the double decker Airbus A380-800 to London, but unfortunately the flight were meant for early morning.

When we headed London, Aqeem was already there with Ayuni's friend, Syafinas aka Pinat and Najah as well. I was so excited like no words can describe. HAHA. The first day, since Aqeem and Najah having class, we decided to go tour ourself and we did actually. It was interesting that the fact we can actually survive walking and get along with London so easily with the help of London Map. We managed to cover all the places of interest in 1 day and yet still manage to shop along the Oxford Street halfway. I think the information and the guide were really good and superb. Just that we were quite lost when we wanted to seacrh fro Malaysian Hall.

The second day, we went back to Oxford Street to do some shopping. The Topshop and Topman were huge as hell babe. I was like entering into a heaven! Then I started waving to Ayuni and Pinat, since they have a plane to catch to Paris. I waited for Aqeem and went to Hyde Park. Then had a detour to Harrods and finally headed back to Whitechapel. The following 2 days i rest in the room since my leg was aching like shit. I was a nightmare walking all day without rest.

Friday, we headed to the central London again with Aqeem's friends Nob and Amir Hazizi ( cardiff student) We went to the Hard Rock Cafe and then went to Buckingham Palace. Well, I always wanted to go to Buckingham Palace since Diana's funeral. Then next day Effa arrived and we all hangout together like old times even though there were no Pilin, Buyut, Nizar, Jijah and the others.

The following week, me and Effa went to Nice, France meeting a virtual friend where we met in the net, and finally get to see each other. He's been a nice host back there in Nice. Syafiq Ikhwan. We had great time there enjoying th e breath-taking scenery of the beaches and the sea gull flying high in the sky. We also were fortunate enough that knowing Nice were just nearby to Monaco, a small country in the EU. Monaco is really nice and beautiful with its casino and the port. Interesting fact that we even saw the changing guard ceremony at the Monaco Palace. Small country yet more to offer. They even have luxury boutiques there as well you know.

Then, last few days in UK, mostly i spent time shopping and sightseeing in London. The experience of going to London was really an interesting journey. Thanks a lot to Aqeem for being a good BFF and being a good host. Najah for the nasi lemak and all the new friends like Emi and others from Eire. Thanks a lot to Afiq as well as a good host in France and the tour and your time even though you were quite busy back then. Hopefully can meet you something in September in Malaysia, since you were back for good. =)

exam vs holiday

Well, it's almost a week now that my exams were over, and now I'm happily having my vacation.
For the past weeks, it's been hard and tough. Staying up all night to read up what's left to read. Sleeping up to only 2 hours a day and sit for the exams to ensure good results. I was studying like it was the final in my 1st year. It was tough though.

As far as i was concern, usually this 1st Internal Assessment should be scored as high as possible, so that the carry marks will be better in the latter days. So, I've did my best and hopefully the marks will be good as well. But, unfortunately for Pharmacology, I found it hard to believe that the question were mostly same like the seniors paper and I definitely have read all that with the prepared answers, but still I couldn't remember what I've read which made me quite frustrated.

After all, I hope that all the subject I passed and happy with it. So, a few days later, I catch a flight to London to have a pleasant vacation which I actually need it. Here, I am blogging in London, a metropolitan city with a friendly citizens and heavens of shopping.

There are lots of places to go and visit and InsyaAllah I'll upload the photos here later.

XOXO

why do exam ever exist?

Every institution, at the end of a semester or every term, exam will definitely haunt most of all the student in the college. Fortunately, some of them are from the course of study which are much easier compare to other course and if there's fortunate, there must be unfortunate, which have to face a tougher exams. Simple math, Medical compare to Culinary Arts.

Ones said, if you fail during your MBBS course, it's normal, but do we really aim to fail? It's a question mark which there 1 people dare say that there are some people aiming to fail which I totally disagree. Let's not talk about it. medical in India, I would categorized it to be most difficult and challenging because in the 2nd Phase, you have 4 main subjects to cover addition of Community Medicine and 5 clinical subject to be studied in 1 term. A course of one and a half years, divided into 3 term. 3rd term, 4th term and 5th term.

I'm one of the candidate which soon to sit for the exam by end of this 3rd term. 5 main subject,5 clinical subject.

• Pathology
• Pharmacology
• Forensic Medicine
• Microbiology
• Community Medicine
• Obstetric & Gynecology
• Surgery
• Medicine
• Paediatrics
• Dermatology

It really looks interesting with all the subject are fancy and being in the hospital, act like a real doctor while learning the most difficult course in the entire world. When it comes to the EXAM part, that's the scariest part of all. Lots of portion to be covered. After all, there are no shortcuts to be a doctor.

Exam will be on 15th-19th March 2010. Really hope I'm ready and please, wish me luck everyone!

XX

Baboosh!

Oh my Dior.

It's been a long time since I last edit this blog. Any-hoo, it feels good to be back on the track.

It's already February and soon to be March [ the month I've been waiting for since a long time ] which also turn out to be the first Internal Assessment. The topics were already put on the board and I'm completely aware of that.

Well, I need to start the engine and drill myself to be loyal to the book now, since the portion is quite 'amazing' I shall say. 4 subjects to be covered and hopefully I'll get through it perfectly. Meanwhile, there's I also like to share a review of a Malay movie which was in theater back there in Malaysia last November. Pisau Cukur. Ohhh-Emm-gee! It's like super cool even though the set and story like was so stupid, but the humor in it make me laugh as hell okayy!

Can you believe it they even use the word like, 'Oh my Dior, Oh my Gucci' instead of Oh my goodness. And 1 mpre thing, when people ask your ambition [ in Malaysian understanding, it would be what you wanted to be when you grow up] and she answered ' Saya nak kahwin dengan Tan Sri, cikgu.....Kalau tak ada, Datuk pon boleh'. That is hilarious non?

Ok, on the other hand, earlier I've mention that I've been waiting for March like so long before right? It's for the vacation that I've planned. I can't wait for the time to come. Furthermore, instead of 1 country, now it's going to be 2 country.La France, ici je viens !

Oh , I shall wait, and better get my butt on the chair and study now!

XOXO.

Baboosh!

first attempt of business

HAHA,

This is a rare occasion in my life.

Doing business of Air Soya which I learn from internet.

I sell it with price RS 40 for 700ml.

It's just to test market, if good feedback, we'll see what will happen.

It will be delivered house to house.

There's the picture.

Hope you guys enjoy~

of a cyst and a cut

As the title above reveals, yesterday, some of my friends and I got a chance to watch a minor operation removal of sebaceous cyst.

Pt who was admitted with c/o small swelling on the left cheek just in front of tragus of ear since 4 years back.

Since 4 years back, the single swelling was small at first and gradually increases in size and doesn't come with c/o pain. The swelling is oval shaped,sized of 2 x 4cm, appears normal skin with a black punctum clearly seen. Swelling is attached to the skin, with well-defined edges, firm in consistency and mobile in all direction and fluctuation appears.

there's no other associate symptom with the swelling.

A small incision was done by BMJH general surgeon, Dr Preeti.

ok, enough of the case history. It was a pleasure that we could see the minor surgery on our friend Solihein Siddiqin. It's quite scary when the doctor inject the xylocaine anesthetic. The incision was made just like what we did during 1st years dissection, just that now we see it is done on human who's alive.

here's some picture. interesting.

I wanna be selfish

Sometimes in life there's always give and take.

I give, You take. You give, I take.

It's simple, but it seems there are some people just don't get the point of the situation here.

Ok, let's get straight. I want something, at least I should give something back right? So, I've give something that lead me to gain something.

For once, I want to be selfish for myself. I sacrifice something at least.

I suffer for 2 weeks.

I was there when the lecturer cursed.

I was there accepting all the consequences

I was there when get scolded of not attending and kept the broken promise.

Attendance? I do care, I've learnt the lesson that I don't want to pay fucking money to sucks instituition for nothing, because I paid myself. My own money. Even though that suffers me and made me broke. So what did I do for that? I came to class no matter what might come along. Yes, that's how I do to care about my attendance. Don't you dare talk about attendance, if you can't barely make it to class for the whole fucking week. Demmit!

For once, I want this to be about me and some of us too. We sacrifice. Why don't you?

I personally not to meant to anyone particular, but just my thought and i thinks this is the way i can express what i feel inside. For once, don't simply think it's all about you, sometimes you need to think about others too.

XOXO

New Year and more has to come.

Hello, It's been a while since I last update my blog, well I'm quite lazy lately.

Well, 2009 had been a great year yet still a sad year for me as well as my family,which I'm sure they would feel the same way, because I do.

Recapping what had happened in the past years, being a medical student, tiredness, laziness, happiness and more. Early of January was new in India and still lots to talk bad about India, which I'm sure it won't fit this blog.

May was the time first time I went back to Malaysia since 7 months before. So, i was excited with everything about Malaysia. Then, faced the 2nd Internal Examination during the first year. huh, it was a disaster and tough.

Wind orchestra 2009 was held in June which was cool enough that SDAR won the 1st runner up and the year we [SDAR] rise back from the fall and with the new instructor, well-known Raja Muzafar. How I missed all the moment and will remain in my mind everyday in my life.

Not to forgot June also was the first grief in the family when my grandma paternal side finally blow her final breath on 2nd June 2009. May Allah put her among the Soleh and Solehah.

July was again grief in my family as well as me,even though I was in India, my maternal grandma left all of us forever. She was ill enough and i couldn't see her for the last time, to hug her, to kiss her and to say goodbye to her. She was in the hospital when she passed away. Inalillah. May Allah bless hr and put her among the Soleh and Solehah.

August was the exam month, and sadly I was among who need to sit for the supplementary paper in Biochemistry. It was hurtful and painful to know the fact.

October came back to India with all the no-readiness for the supplementary exam. But, Alhamdulillah I've passed and too bad that some of the plans were behind schedule. I was supposed to buy a new hp, but MSU took the money away from me due the unreasonable reseat paper fee which was RM2k. [sh*t msu]

December, finally went for postings and regular class and need to attend 'top-up' class during the vacation. Managed to get the new hp which i love so much right now and now need to save lots of money for the next vacation which is L**D**.

Now come 2010 with better hopes and future InsyaAllah.

Thanks for everything what had happened in 2009. It shall remain in my memory whatever happen to me weather It's good or bad. Sayonara 2009, Akemashite 2010. Minasan, Omedeto gozaimasu!

it's winter and hols are coming.

First of all, as u all know that now it's already winter, but there's a weird phenomena happens here in IMS, we call it as BREEDING. I don't know why maybe it's nature. Whatever~

So, usually winter there will definitely have holidays right, but unfortunately as for my batch and lateral entry student, our holiday are canceled. Know why? due to lack of class and need to catch up with the presenting batches, so we need to attend classes and posting as it is alternately with Community Medicine, which mostly people hate.

But, it's ok, at least i can still continue my saving cause i have plans for the next vacation. HEHE.

Till here then, sorry for the late post. I'm a busy person, so lots of my time i spent to do something else.

XOXO